Life and Drama

Life
SO... here I sit with my book in hand. For some reason I thought that this would be the end of...something.?.However I find that this journey has taken a life of it's own and I am simply got go where it goes. I don't mean that I am just along for the ride, this journey requires a lot of participation. And I intend to participate in it to the fullest. I am not sure that I can say that I am completely in charge of this journey, I think there may be some forces of nature helping me along. I am in control of living it fully or retreating and hiding (again).

 I choose to live it!

Drama

 Someone said to me yesterday they are so tired of the drama in their lives. And I sort of jokingly (I thought) said, " I am done with drama! Drama has no place in my life any more! I am on the positivity wagon, and I intend to stay there!" Then I realized... Wow, I really meant that! It took me a minute to absorb it and accept that It really was. There has been so much drama in my life, my own and others that I have chosen to take on. I realized that I really had let it go. If it was someone elses. it was theirs and they needed to deal with it. I was tossing it out (so to speak) and had been for a while that is what I have been struggling with over the last few months. I had sort of shut myself off from any drama, become rather hermit like in chosing who what and where my interactions have been. And now I am ready to come out and play again!

This doesn't mean that I don't feel for others, their pain, anger and whatever. I simply choose, not to let it become part of me any more. I realized rather sadly, that this meant I might have to make some changes in my life. Nothing bad. Just simply that if the drama gets to be too much or goes on too long I may need to walk away until I or whoever, has dealt with that drama. Not to stay away forever, just until it is over or at least controlled.