Well it's been almost a month since I last wrote and while nothing has changed much, a lot has changed. Talk about a contradiction. I am now looking for a GOOD home for my dog. She is a one year old rescue, probably a Rhodesian Ridgeback. And while I love her to death, I don't have enough energy to give her the exercise she needs and I am tired of trying to keep everyone happy in my house. So rather than fighting about it anymore (even though it has been mostly a silent war) I have decided it is in her best interest and I hope eventually mine to find her a new home. She is the smartest dog I have ever owned, but she needs more than I seem able to give her. It is hard to admit failure, but I guess I am. Admitting failure that is. There is a lot of crying in my house right now. Me! I am trying to come to terms with it and just so desperately wish I knew I was doing the right thing.